Tired of Gay.com

Hi All :-)

I guess if you are reading this then you have noticed that I have not been in the gay.com Iowa room lately. I did some thinking and based on 4.5 years on gay.com looking for a real flesh & bone friend(s) has turned up "fruitless" then it is time to do better things with my time. I do intend on sneaking back in the room ever so often but every day as I used to do. I'm usually not the type of person to give up on a dream but if I were to keep persuing this one then I will miss out on other dreams of mine that have been put on the back burner so to speak. I feel as though I have tried very hard to find real friends on gay.com over the years. My final attempt was last night when I was asking for information on bars and where to go and after a nice chat in the main room no one actually wanted to accompany me anywhere. It's ok, I'll get over it in time. It's important to know that I never asked anyone for sex. I did have a teasing problem in the main room at times but that was quickly cleared up in pvts. I have had a few good laughs on gay.com but mostly, as I reflect on the last few months, gay.com has caused me much heartbreak and many nights crying myself to sleep. I hope this will be a positive decision that I have made. I have been on the Internet for only 5.5 years now. I did take a full year off of gay.com once before and I'm sure that I can do it again. Thanks to everyone who did consider me a "chat friend." And for those of you whom I annoyed, I am sorry.

I hate goodbyes ... so ... Joshua_IC signing off until next time ....